365 Days of Thanks for January 1 - 13 - Haiti Focus
January is a month that reminds me a lot of Haiti so many of my "thank yous" will be to those connections.
As things began to unravel all I could think about was losing my own adoption. I had learned at that point that speaking up about things or against things "created" delays, missing paperwork, and even adoption cancellations. I had no access to my adoption documents so to speak up or walk away meant probably losing my adoption progress and having to start over with a possibility of not being able to do it all. I didn't have the courage or the faith to do that but I watched as both Amanda and Kimberly did and I prayed for what they had. I still don't understand why but they both believed enough in me to come to me and be really upfront with me that either I needed to step away or take full responsibility for supporting what I knew to be lies. I wanted nothing to do with what Heather was doing to families but I also didn't want to lose my kids. It was one of the darkest times in my life but they didn't give up on me. They reminded me of the person I claim to be and reminded me that whatever happened God could work it out. Things got so bad though that I did reach a point where I was willing to risk my adoption to stop Heather from hurting so many people. I was devastated and hopeless but they stuck with me, supported me, prayed and cried with me and most of all were true friends to me who helped get me through. Other than them I was very alone for a while when I stepped down from working for Heather because at that time so many people (some staff and most adopting parents) didn't see or know the things I did and everyone feared losing their adoption. In the end the truth was revealed and everyone else quit working for her and most of the parents sadly either lost their adoptions or had to start over. It still breaks my heart and hurts my brain to think of all that we have been through but I will forever be thankful to Amanda and Kimberly for loving me through it and giving them the strength and support to do the right thing.
I have many more who have helped in our Adoption to thank in the coming weeks so stay tuned..... :)