She gave me up long ago.
She's been a face I've never known.
What do I do when the memories I have
are of a lonely child, abused and sad?
What do I do when I don't know why?
When it hurts so much I can't help but cry?
What should I feel when I hear her name?
Should I be full of love or full of pain?
Sometimes I just get so confused.
I don't know what to feel or what to do.
In my heart I love her so.
but in my mind it just hurts to know.
To know that my mother could not love me
to know she gave me to another family.
But I know now it was the best thing to do
because I've me and I've been made new.
There's a purpose for everything that's in my life
and there will always be times when I won't know "Why?".
But there is one thing I will always remember....
I have family, friends and a Savior who will love me FOREVER!